Deidra | 21 | Florida
chemistry student. waitress. inked. jabbed. sarcastic. analytic. forever sexually frustrated.
I’m getting really lazy.
It’s weird though, I work 40+ hours a week and I come home and just sit around. I feel like maybe I’m burning myself out. I’m sitting here on my ground and I’m like “I could go run, I need to start getting back in shape.” but let’s be realistic it’s summer in Florida, I’m not about to go running. Or I could go down to the pool again like yesterday and swim a few laps and listen to some sweet tunes while trying to even out this awkward accidental sunburn, but ouch that would hurt!
This is an example on the smaller scale, I’m doing the same thing with the bigger, more important decisions in my life. I’m just tossing anything too difficult to deal with onto the back burner and it’s only growing increasingly hard, and never going away.
All these reasons why not. I’m searching for the reasons why.
I’m searching for some motivation. I haven’t had it in me for so long. I still don’t feel I have anything to try for.
hey it’s actually a sunny day 🌅☀👙#floridasummer #poolday #90degrees #beautifulassday #tanning #imasnowflake